Deciding...

I’ve never been one to make decisions quickly.

Or to really enjoy the decision making process.

In the last three months, my life has been full of decisions, and I can feel the weight of these decisions lately.

Right now, I’m in the middle of more big decisions.

I know that there is a God in Heaven that directs these decisions when I let Him. (And, why on earth don’t I let him guide me more than I do?) There are days when I long for Him to spoon-feed the answers to my questions to me, but I have to remember that there is beauty in the struggle.

I feel the motivation lately to just try things. I don’t know why I haven’t realized this before, but when we start acting and deciding and then taking those decisions to the Lord, this is when He can give us confirmation or guidance about the path we are on. If we just sit by the tracks, the train won’t just pick us up and take us somewhere.

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf said, “When our wagon gets stuck in the mud, God is much more likely to assist the man who gets out to push than the man who merely raises his voice in prayer—no matter how eloquent his oration.”

I’m still learning, but I feel illuminated by this realization.